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...I think that's enough...Anyway, had to post this somewhere. No doubt someone is going to completely ignore my honest warning and read this shit anyway. Not going to give names...If you're reading this, I mean YOU, and you know who you are. And if you leave a comment, I'll know who you are, too. Don't bother. I really don't care who reads this or what they think of it.



Obviously, the wolf and I are no longer together. On that subject, I have a connection to point out.

Rivermoon - We thought he was a dragon. He turned out to be a wolf. Shortly after, he stabbed me in the back and left me for dead.

Another almost perfect replication of that in recent months. Go figure. I even thought she was a dragon, and she turned out to be a wolf. Do I know ANYTHING about the people I care about? Apparently not. I don't think I can trust people I know nothing about. Well, not many people I care about now, eh? They all hate me. Why? Because I faked my death, then intentionally revealed my own lie, followed quickly by revealing to the target of the lie that I was getting sick of my best friend's comments on how horrid his OTHER friend's life is and, frankly, I was considering breaking contact.

My explanation of the faked death has two sides. One was revenge on my ex, who somehow managed to shatter my heart BEFORE she broke up with me (adding insult while throwing salt in my wounds). During our relationship, I can praise her for consistency. She consistently lied to me, kept secrets from me, cheated on me, and she came pretty damn close to faking her death. I remember a particular incident in which she pretended to have a terminal disorder involving having only half of a heart. She then pretended to be her friend Damon to tell me how she was doing in the hospital (which was often something along the lines of "she's dying," or "she might not make it"). I suspected deceit, and sure enough, Damon was NOT her friend. Nor was she in the hospital. Damon does not even exist, and she has a relatively mild and almost harmless disorder of the heart. I don't even remember what that one is. It wasn't significant enough to commit the name to memory, I guess. Just one incident among many. Then there were the times she cheated on me. Shade was the "first guy"'s name. She cheated on me with him in secret. She finally told me. I gave her the choice to go with him or stay with me. She chose me. Only days after she rejected him, Shade's cousin Dustin came online to tell everyone that Shade had died in a gruesome trampoline accident. The springs broke and he fell through, the springs shredding his legs badly enough that he bled to death. My gf was devastated. She went to Dustin for comfort. I knew the moment he spoke of Shade's death that Dustin and Shade were the same person. I knew his plan. He was using the death of an imaginary family member to lure her away from me. A second chance at her. I tried to warn her, but she wouldn't believe me. The comfort she sought from Dustin turned into pity sex, and she eventually told me that she was, yet again, cheating on me. I gave her the same choice. She chose me again. I later proved Dustin's deceit and revealed him publicly in H4W, destroying his already stained reputation. Of course, he's back in the good books now. I don't believe he's much better than he was before. And so, finally, she has left me. Partly for another man, in fact. I always let her get away with her other crimes. But now, I've had enough. After all I did for her, and all the pain and suffering and hassle she caused me, I believe my revenge was called for.

The second reason for my faked death...cutting off contact. I could no longer have anything to do with her. Not because I hated her...but because I loved her. I don't like saying that anymore, but it's true. When she said she would never give me another chance to continue giving her my all, everything I could give her under the circumstances, I couldn't take it. I couldn't give her anything less than everything. And I could only give her everything if we were in each other's arms, in love, together forever. I can't give her less than that, but I obviously couldn't give her more. So it would hurt me if she even spoke to me. I could no longer have anything to do with her. So I faked my death to ensure she would never try to contact me again. But when I realized she would commit suicide, I couldn't keep up the lie any longer. I couldn't bear to be the cause of that. So I intentionally gave myself away. Of course, she hated me for it, as did all of her friends. I suppose in the end, I achieved my ultimate goals. I repaid her for some of the pain she caused me, and she will never contact me again. Sacrifices had to be made, and it was a crude way of doing it, but it worked. It was the only thing I could think of on the spot.

I've also been keeping an eye on the Karma Slaps she receives for what she's done. I'm expecting at least 6.

1: She dumps me for a gang member. She and said guy are no longer talking. Hence, she is alone. Again.

2: She was betrayed by her ex in exactly the same way she betrayed him in the beginning.

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I had two more of those filled in...I can't remember them right now. I'll have to ask a friend. I know I shared them...


So, in one day, I managed to destroy nearly all of my relationships. Most of my stronger bonds were broken...and yet, certain ones became even stronger. I am still not completely alone. And a bonus: I have several different potential mates, and I happen to be single now. Lookin' good on the horizon! New start coming at school, too. If my plan works, I'll probably have a lot more potential mates trailing me. And I'm sure I'll find a bigger group of similar minds at a bigger school FOR similar minds.